Eeeek! Errrrg! Ugh!

Mother's Day was such a great day. My wonderful boys surprised me and took me to a fabulous buffet for brunch. I...enjoyed myself while I was there. To say the least. I mean, it's okay to have a cheat day every now and then, right?  I enjoyed artichoke spinach dip, fresh homemade bread, creamy hash browns, eggs benedict AND cheesecake. Oh. That cheesecake. I think I had a dream about it last night. One of the best things I've ever eaten. Well, as soon as we got home I had the most horrible stomach cramps. I knew it was going to end badly. I stuffed myself silly-- and didn't deprive myself of anything that I wanted to eat-- it was, after all, Mother's Day. Well, I paid for it. No need to reprimand me for cheating and eating all of the naughty things I've been working so hard to avoid. No need to tell me how stupid it was to throw it all away and have to start from scratch again-- trying to get all of those naughty cravings out of my system.

I paid. 

I'm Ready

I can report that I am down 12 pounds, friends!

You know, this journey for me is not just about the weight. I have been on a mission to stare all of the things I've wanted to address for so long but didn't know how right in the face.

It's not an easy task.

• It's hard to change patterns that you've established for yourself. 
• It's hard to change habits that have long been part of your life.
• It's hard to admit that rather than facing all of your "demons" you've been checking-out emotionally.
• It's hard to be vulnerable with people about your shortcomings, but what has been done in the darkness will continue to grow unless it is exposed by the light.

I'm ready for the light to expose the darkness.

I'm ready to stop checking-out emotionally because I'm
too afraid to face what's on my plate. 

I'm ready to find my identity in HIM, rather than the
numbers on the scale or pats on the back. 

I'm ready grow up spiritually.

I'm ready to grow up emotionally.

I'm ready to start living as the person He created me to be.

I'm ready to stop making excuses.

Let's get 'er done.